Through the Terrains with Jesus | 018
There we were, my husband and I, praying on our knees with tears flowing down our cheeks.
“Lord, if this is your will, I will trust in you. But if this isn’t in your will, take this from me.”
We didn’t want to walk this, but we knew God was with us. As soon as our visit ended, she scheduled for another day to come back in so we could possibly get seen by the surgeon. Only part was…. we would need to get flown or make a drive up there to go over options and have a full scan.
I didn’t want either or, but it needed to be done. We knew it needed to be done. We prayed and asked the Lord what it was we needed to do and there it was, he said to go through with visiting the surgeon.
I wondered why he wanted me to go through with it. I wrote all my questions down to be ready and prepared for when we arrive.
“Suffering.” The word I heard the Lord say… “Long-Suffering” and was taken to Job.
“God, you are kidding right?? This is how I feel, walking through a season of suffering… can you just take this away. I know you can! I believe you can!”
But it wasn’t that easy. He wanted me to see something I wasn’t seeing. And that is how loving He is. I know sometimes it seems He may not be loving from not taking things away from you, this circumstance, this situation, this…. whatever it is you are walking but I can assure you, there is something there we do not see because we become blinded but the giant in front of us. The one we are fighting up against.
It isn’t that God can’t take away these things from us. He surely can. But there is a lesson to be taught in it. There is a drawing nearer to God in it. There is a whole new level of love to come from it.
As we began to get a plan put together and our bags packed to head out, my heart felt this total peace from God knowing He is with me and He is already there with the surgeon going to share with us all what we need in that moment and time.
Though my dr was afraid, though my specialist was unsure… here we are… on the way to visit a surgeon far away hoping to get questions answered that couldn’t be answered by the others.
But even then, I know God would show up in that room and I know He will not leave me alone in this place. I know without a doubt, who my God is….
Do you know who He is to you?