Why I Left Young Living
“Do not fear man, fear me!”
-His Spoken Word one morning
This written post has had a long time coming. I didn’t want to write this piece. I was ashamed and afraid. Ashamed of being misguided and afraid of what man has to say.
Then that morning is when I heard the Lord tell me, to not fear man but to fear Him, for what can mere mortals do to me, Matthew 10:28, Roman’s 8:31.
I realized right there that I shouldn’t be afraid to share what He is telling me to share. What He has been teaching me and showing me is all to bring God glory and honor.
Now before I begin to share the “why” I left… let me begin by saying this, in no way shape or form am I a doctor or counselor, nor am I stating scientific facts, I am only stating what God has shown me throughout the years and how easily it is to be deceived falling into mans traditions.
I am in no way shape or form speaking terribly of any one person but sharing what the Lord has spoken directly to me about this and why He told me I needed to leave.
Now… onto say this…
I was with Young Living for quite a few years, 8 years to be exact. But things began to shift once the founder, Gary Young, had passed. And that is when the Lord began to show and tell me more details.
I was pregnant with our miracle twin boys when this occurred. Out of habit, or as they and I would say, “using it religiously,” I would reach for an oil each time something occurred. Or when I began to feel “off.” But one day, at the very beginning of my pregnancy, while I was feeling terribly sick with the C* word, we all know that one word, along with morning sickness (mind you, my morning sickness was NOT just morning, it lasted all night and day), I reached for some oils to help soothe this mama and help this crud to flee. I remember vividly, hearing from the Lord, telling me to not use any oils during my pregnancy.
To say I was a bit confused, yes! I was not sure why He would tell me such a thing. I mean they are from Him, correct? Not necessarily.
Even after creating certain blends for my pregnancy when I found out, I couldn’t apply them. Obedience was, and is, necessary in our walk with Christ.
He then told me two very specific words that I could not even think to imagine such things…
Black Magic.
Occult.
I couldn’t believe my ears. “Could this be true? What in the world does occult even mean? I never heard of this word…
And black magic? This sounds witchy, not good at all. Tell me Lord….. tell me…”
I continued to pray and ask the Lord for more insight, more revelation, more clarity, more answers. I truly do believe He wants to give us answers on what He speaks to us, to gain wisdom knowledge and clarity, James 1:5.
I began to seek the Lord more on this and He said to not order anymore.
To be quite frank with you, my itching hands wanted to order. I had this thought of, “I NEED THEM, I can’t live without them.”
And that is where it began to reveal more truth.
We rely on these sources as if they were made to cure us when ONLY God can cure us. It is an illusion that places a blindfold having us to think such things. As much as I wanted to reach for the oils to have a pregnancy of safety and healing because of the diagnosis we received, HE wanted to show me, it isn’t the oils. It is HIM.
He began to reveal to me more on the dark side of enneagrams, chakras they teach, stones being worn and/or used, the “self-meditating” (yoga), the deep uncomfortable feeling of “dream catchers”, “inner child”, the feelings oils to find your inner self, etc. He revealed how these are not of Him but are created in “black magic.” He showed me how back in the day there was rituals to create spells for dreams, prosperity, etc, which led to opening doors to diabolical spirits.
It hasn’t changed, it’s the same, just modernly changed.
God is not of black magic, it’s sorcery. It’s witchcraft. It’s conniving and plain out not good.
I remember trashing out some oils He told me to trash out. And some, well I kept. I thought, “surely I couldn’t be hearing correctly right? After all we are ‘taught’ that it’s from Him. Aren’t they?”
Until the day we brought our boys home from the NICU, able to finally come home after 105 and 115 days. We were home only a couple of weeks when one of our little ones caught this terrible sickness. So what did I do? I ran thieves in the diffuser without even thinking, again just out of habit, and there I saw with my own eyes, how he was struggling to breathe.
Tears welped within and my heart racing and pounding. I knew… I just knew that it was the oils. God didn’t tell me to go back to using them. He told me to trash them.
When we got flown, it was there when I repented of not obeying to what He told me and instead spoke Gods Word over His body.
Once I began praying in the Spirit, praying the Word of God, the scripture God gave me to pray over his body, after the second scans the following day, we saw his lungs clear of mucus.
It was the most insane moment of our lives. Witnessing the hand of God and the Power of His Word.
He began to show me something as my mind and heart asked, “how is it that these oils don’t expire, yet plants expire in seasons?”
It was something I wondered and thought of as seasons changed. And it was there I began to see revelation. Plants indeed do expire. They have seasons they grow and seasons they are to die off. It’s the natural stage of life for plants.
See friend, I can’t tell you what to do in your choices. But I can tell you, be obedient to His Word. What He tells you. There is reasons beyond comprehension that He sees and wants to protect you from.
There is this deep abiding grace he showers us with when we come to Him in repentance and seeking His will.
The Lord showed me the black arts magic behind it and the occult, the brain washing of it. How we have relied fully on this source when the source is HIM and HIM alone. I wasn’t uncomfortable years ago using them. Until I began to draw deeper into the Lord and HE began to tell me after the founder had passed away. It was then, after the founders passing, that the Lord began to say to leave and not order anymore. After the founders passing, a book was written and spread that He began to say the word, “dark magic.”
I didnt fully understand. I had zero clue. But He showed me with each step of obedience I took.
He is our ultimate healer. No one and nothing else. He is our physician at work. He is the one who can help heal our inner souls from pain, hurt, destruction of the past, etc. No substance can do this. It is Him and Him alone.
I carried so much guilt of leading others in the wrong path that I myself did not even know, but the Lord graciously restored me joy and forgiveness. I can only wish those who were under me see the Lord leading them and revealing to them of this also while also forgiving me.
Just the other day I found some “inner healing” books I had. I did not realize I had them as they were filled with dust on the bottom of the bookshelf. I suddenly felt the deep nudge to throw them out. I listed them on Marketplace to sell them, but that deep nudge from God was telling me to trash them. And that I did.
Something broke once I did that.
And just today, on this Tuesday, as I began to write this piece, I felt to look up the root word for holistic. Holistic health is thrown around quite a bit but without realizing the root and where it originated from. I won’t go much into detail here, but being one who would put my bio as “holistic living” I realized the conviction deep inside was the stir of the Holy Spirit showing me it isn’t okay to say such things.
Holistic may mean “whole and new” or even scientifically put, “a whole is an entity, from a group of galaxies to the behaviour of electrons around an atom.”…. Although, God indeed wants us whole healed and made new, He wants it done with Him.
Partnered with Him, nothing else.
He doesn’t want to be the second source but the FIRST source of our life. No other “thing” or resource can heal and mend our wounded souls and body aches. It is by Him and Him alone that is fully able to do so.
Now am I saying to quit medically necessary medication? No, I am not saying that. Am I saying to live a toxic living? No I am not saying that either. He has shown me how to naturally make things for my family through gardening herbs, natural teas, local raw honey, creating cleaning products with lemon and vinegar… etc.
What I am saying is what the Lord has been showing me spiritually, behind the scenes that no one either sees or wants to openly share about yet. Whether they are in fear of man as I was, or wanting to be all clean before speaking, whatever the case may be, I am here sharing, and saying why He has told me to leave. Because its an open portal to an opening that is NOT of Him.
This is the reason I left young living. From the witnessing of what I saw occur and what He has shown me in what He can do. Since obeying Him, I felt free. Truly free from this bondage I did not know I had. A freedom that Christ ransomed and paid for, for me to have and walk in, Galatians 5:1.
He truly is magnificent in what He does.
He truly is good in who He is.
He truly is true to His Word, every word of it in the Bible, and leads us in the correct path.
It is easy to fall into the trap of man, and this is not just with young living but with many other companies He has shown me that doesn’t serve Him. They say it with their mouths but their hearts are far from Him. You can see it by the fruit that is bearing. Is it of God or from a god?
Is it biblical or is it worldly?
Are they seeking success, platforms, money, fame and pleasure or are they seeking the Will of God and walking in His ways?
We must always, always, be in tune with the Lord and hearing His voice.
Where He leads, few will follow, but what a great reward there is.
Where He leads, it won’t be popular to the world, but in heaven you have all of heaven shouting for you to continue your race.
Where He leads won’t always make sense, but He promises to lead you to eternal life.
Where He leads, He promises to fulfill every need of yours.
Where He leads, He mends, restores, and makes all things new.
This is who He is. God who is jealous of other gods who are being served.
We are told to walk in the light as He is light, 1 John 1:7. We are told to walk in the Spirit, Galatians 5:22-23, it honors and pleases Him. We are to saturate our hearts, minds, souls and strength with the Word of God, Psalm 1:1-3, and mediate only on the Word of God, never yoga, never self meditating, positive affirmation, worldly tests, etc. The Holy Spirit in believers and followers of Christ reveal all truth to us. There is no need to seek in the world of things it cannot reveal that only God can reveal to us individually. We are to allow the Word to be lamp to our feet and the light to our path, Psalm 119:105
May we be women, who take heed of his instruction, even if it hurts, pondering on the wonderful deeds of the Lord, seeking His presence continually, laying ourselves down for more of Him and less of ourselves, walking fully in His ways—even if the world hates us.
Keep pressing on sister. Keep tuning to His voice. He never leads astray but always leads to the well path. The world may hate you, despise you, mock you, reject you, even come at an offense towards you for making such decision… but truth is… its all worth it when we are walking in the Spirit of God and with Christ. He never fails. He always is and will come through for us as we obey and take heed of his instructions.
Scripture
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.” Proverbs 9:10
“Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits; who forgives all your iniquities and heals all of your diseases.” Psalm 103:1-2
“Bless the LORD, you His angels, who excel in strength, who do His word, Heeding the voice of His word. Bless the LORD, all you HIs hosts, You ministers of His, who do His pleasure.” Psalm 103:20-21
“Then He said to them all, ‘If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.” Luke 9:23
“But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected in him. By this we know that we are in Him.” 1 John 2:5
”Blessed is everyone who fears the Lord, who walks in His ways.” Psalm 128:1
”Blessed is the man who fears the LORD, who delights greatly in His commandments.” Psalm 112:1
”For the commandment is a lamp, and the law a light; Reproofs of instruction are the way of life.” Proverbs 6:23.
”I delight to do your will, O my God, and your law is within my heart.” Psalm 40:8
“Walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him: bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God.” Colossians 1:10