When the World Seems Heavy

There’s so much on my mind and heart that I couldn’t help but just step away from writing for a while. 

Picking up the computer and getting my fingers to type again I can honestly say I was a bit nervous. And afraid. Now wanting to step on any one toes, but the fact that this certain seasons of the COVID really has put alot of weight on my shoulders.

It has been heavy. Hard. Lots of shift changes. Plans suddenly stopped. New decisions to be made about schooling. A Heart Check for sure.

Realizing where my heart was laying, where it was digging into, what was stored in my heart and what I was chasing. 

I felt weary. Heavy. Sad. Hurt. Wanting to help change the world but also felt to be called to my own family for a while. 

Have you struggled with a lot going on this season? Do you struggle with trying to be everything to everyone lately? Trying to carry the weight of the world? Trying to “fix” the world? Trying to hold your family together, life’s turn arounds and also help others?

I know this all too well. 

Friend, we are not Jesus. We cannot save the world, only He could. He came to accomplish the plan and will of our Father by coming to the world and dying on the cross for us so that we might be saved (John 3:16). 

So much on the social media, so much uproars and riots, fights and arguments, name calling and bashing, pointing fingers and division, family no longer being kind, friends now leaving because of your belief… it has all gotten way too much and out of hand so quickly. Like a wildfire that spread within seconds. 

We have to learn to turn our phones off, tune the shouts of the world (and media) off for a while so we can tune our ears and hearts to the very one who can fill our hearts with peace, our ears with truth, our eyes with discernment. If we don’t tune into Him, don’t get filled with Him, don’t sit in His loving presence, we can quickly get drifted into the worlds chaos and media. 

We then become sucked into the world and not be the one standing on the lamp stand with our light always shining. 

The other day I sat trembling and uneasy. Having to wear a mask. It broke my heart knowing it has come to down to this. 

My daughters and I were sitting in our car not wanting to put it on our face. Not wanting it to be this new “normal”. Hearing everyone say “practice, have them practice wearing it so when school starts they will be use to wearing it…” My girls don’t agree with wearing it throughout the hours of the day in school. And neither do I as their mother but this is another subject for another day…. 

I just couldn’t help but hear this and it tore me into pieces….

But in all of this, I remembered one thing that is certain. 

HE IS FAITHFUL. 

Though the world has turned upside down, though plans have come to a pause, though school plans are unsure of at this moment, though I weep and cry having to wear this mask, though we don’t know what tomorrow may hold, I know who holds tomorrow. 

I must trust in Him at all times. I must rely on Him in this. I must know He works all things for our good and His glory because He surely does. I must be open and willing to be changed, to allow Him to mold me, purify me, cleanse me, make me new. Because this my friend… is a refining moment. 

Don’t be afraid to tune the shouts of the world off. 

Don’t be afraid to stay off social media for a day or two or more, I promise you won’t miss anything! 

Don’t be afraid of tomorrow because He is already there!

Friend, I am ready to walk away from social media for the next day (maybe two) just to be filled, sitting with Jesus, hushing the shouts of this world. Not running away but more of getting a soul rest. 

We all need a soul rest. A place where we can be comforted, where we can cry and laugh, a place where we can share our fears and struggles, our troubles and worries all while still being loved. What a great Father we have, sitting in His loving arms taking off away from the shouts of the world.

How about you dear friend? Do you need a soul rest? Do you need to just tune out the shouts of the world and instead refocus on the one who gave us life–––Jesus?

I want you to know dear friend, Our wonderful Father sees you. Even behind the mask, he sees and loves you. He yearns for us to come to Him so He can speak tenderly to us, preparing us for what lies ahead, stilling our heart speaking tenderly to his beautiful child, and that is you my sweet friend. 

Love you sweet friend and may the Lords presence surround you tonight & each day forward.