A Spiritual Attack on the Heart and Mind

2022 was a hard year for me. I would continually feel this anxiety hit my heart that would weigh it down. Twice I would end up at the hospital room, in the emergency room, only to come out of there with no news. It would leave me wondering, thinking and asking God “why, what is going on that they can’t even find anything wrong?”

I remember distinctively how it occurred. My chest was pounding and hurting suddenly while I was sleeping. I could not breathe. No matter how hard I tried to seek a breath, I couldn’t breathe. No matter how hard I tried to keep my mind off of what was going on, it would not go away. I went to the restroom and tried to catch a breath. I then told my husband he needed to take me to the ER right this moment. I cried heavily as I felt my heart crushing in. Or so it seemed. It seemed as if a tool was crushing on both sides and just trying to find a breath was impossible.

As we loaded in the car, he drove as fast and safe as he could, but with each bump it hurt worse. I would cry more and I would cry in tears asking God to take this away, whatever it was.

We went it the ER, they tested and added all the things. Did every scan you can think of ran blood tests, ran the EKG, and provided some pretty heavy morphine, which by the way I hated. My body went numb and I could not feel light, I felt so heavy it was insane.

Suddenly my heart seemed to have slowed down and things felt a little more clearer. Yet while laying in that bed I began to wonder, “why me? What is this? What is truly going on?” I was released at 4:30am and headed to bed at 5am.

My aunt and uncle came that morning around 10 am and began to pray over me and share a very good Word to me. Then a few weeks later as we were in our hotel at Fort Worth for our twin boys being in the NICU, it happened once again.

My husband was getting ready to take me to the ER until I said no. I wanted to pray and recite truth over my heart.

Then it happened.

I opened up my bible, spoke the very words of 1 Peter 5:7, “casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you”, and also Philippians 4:6-7 “do not be anxious about anything, but in everything in prayer and supplication make your requests known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” I also repeated 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power love and self control.” While speaking these verses I then went to the restroom and said it loudly with confidence and authority, “Satan leave me alone now! You cannot and will not have me, leave now!” And it was suddenly gone, in an instant.

I came out of the restroom and my husband knew by my face, “you look alot better! You feel better?” I said, Yes! Yes I do!

See, the enemy comes here to kill steal and destroy. He doesn’t come to let us have a life of abundance but a life of worry, anxiety, stress, a lack of trust. Why? Because he is a destroyer. That is him. He wants us to not thrive in Jesus but to be lacking with our Jesus, to attack where it disrupts his plan.

He will do anything in his power to disturb you from your walk with Christ. Why? Because you are a hinderance, the light that He dislikes very very much. BUT this shouldn’t bother you nor have you feel afraid. It should cause you to plant your feet even more in the LORD and have Him lead you directly in what you should do.

I didn’t know why the Dr’s couldn’t find anything wrong not once, but twice that I went. I could never understand until the hatred time when I prayed on my knees, went to the restroom and called satan out of my own body and to flee. It was then it hit me to see that it was never to be found in the physical realm because there wasn’t anything wrong with me physically, but it was a spiritual battle. A battle that the enemy wanted to win at because I was seeing our twin boys daily, reciting truth and sharing how God brought us through these rough times to nurses, doctors, everyone we came in contact with. And that was bothering satan.

Sister, there is such a thing as a spiritual warfare. And that warfare is a battle against the principalities of darkness. But because we have Christ, we have nothing to fear but rather, walk victoriously in Christ knowing we have the victory at hand already.

When the heart and mind are clashing much like anxiety, it is best to pause for a moment and begin to pray to the Lord. Submit to Him just as James 4:7 tells us, “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”

Take those thoughts captive and take them to Christ.

Recite truth loudly over your own thoughts. Hold tight to these verses and memorize them. Scripture is alive and active and will speak loudly in our lives!

Call upon a prayer warrior friend who will go into battle with you, if needed.

Spiritual attacks are real. And they happen in many scenarios whether it be lacking trust in the Lord, overworking, trying to take control over a circumstance, fear based, etc. The only way we can distinguish where it may come from is by being with the Lord and allowing Him to reveal it to you. It is a underlying root that needs to be taken care of and only the Lord can uproot that weed if we allow Him too.

The verses I shared with you above are from the ESV translation and I highly recommend using those verses and also, praying to Father God to ask Him what verses you specifically need to memorize and recite truth over and over again.