Through the Terrains with Jesus | 020
Here we are…. making a 6 hour drive all for a visit. To meet the surgeon, discuss options, and go over detailed explanations.
Leaving my two older children behind for them to not miss a day of school while I am 6 hours away was the toughest decision we had to make. We did not want to leave anyone behind, but the truth of the matter was, we had zero clue as to how long we will be there. There was no estimated day we would come home. Deep inside, I felt we wouldn’t come home until the end of the week. And mind you, we left Sunday noon time.
As we were driving our way up to Houston TX, the only surgeon closest to us in Texas, I began to feel the Lord’s presence and peace in the midst of the drive. Never in a million years did I think I would have to face this situation. Nor did I think I would have to visit a surgeon far away to discuss options.
But as I began to sit in that seat, looking at the view during the drive, I reminisce on how God has been so faithful before, now, and is still supplying every need of ours. The thing about this journey is that its been a day to day process. It reminds me of Matthew 6:34 that continues to show up on my heart….
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” ESV translation
“This will be a day to day journey.” Those words are what I heard from the Lord and I just couldn’t stand to hear that everyday, it would just be that. Day to day. I won’t know what tomorrow holds, I won’t know what next week holds, today is enough and thats that.
But isn’t that how it always has been and should be? I have become so americanized with my thinking… feeling I need to do this and plan that and know the next 20 steps of life before proceeding. So many of us have become americanized.
Though planning isn’t bad, its good, but when it comes to the point of us wanting to know what tomorrow holds… wanting to plan out exactly as we had written it down for tomorrow… we just set ourselves up for failure.
Only God knows what tomorrow holds. Our schedules could rapidly easily change. We could wake up one morning and run late. WE could wake up one morning and be very early. We could wake up one morning and receive a diagnosis that leaves us searching all about it (well that was it for us anyway).
The fact of the matter is, my journey just as He had said it would be, is day to day, moment to moment, minute by minute. Though I wasn’t okay hearing it, I knew I needed to trust my Father more with my life to where He was leading me.
I may not have the answers for tomorrow.
I may not have the direction right away for tomorrow.
I may not even know the plans for tomorrow.
But what I do know is this; “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, not to harm you, to give you a future and hope.” | Jeremiah 29:11. I know this is an assurance that His plans for me isn’t to hurt me, lead me astray, or to even leave me on my own. His plan for me is like any loving Father, to directly lead me closer to His heart, teaching me things I know nothing about. Showing me more of His character.
I wonder how many of us know, like deeply know his character? Deeply know WHO HE is. Deeply know His name and heart for us?
I wonder…..