Through the Terrains with Jesus | 006

Losing the Grip & Using Worship As Our Weapon

While walking through that moment of an answered prayer, and Him showing me it was time to repent of what I prayed and instead pray for His Will to be done in my life however it may look… that is when I began to let go of the need to try and control the outcome.

God wasn’t angry with me when I prayed that prayer in the parking lot. He definitely showed me right there in that room how powerful prayer is.

But, He also showed me in my Spirit that it wasn’t what I truly saw. I saw what I wanted, what I prayed, but it wasn’t going to play out like that.

He sure does have a sense of humor!

He already had a plan set for me. He already knew what I would walk and encounter ahead of time. He knew what I would feel, say, think, and even come up against. He wasn’t surprised by it at all. Even though I was.

I think so often when we come into circumstances out of our control, we want to take the wheel and begin to have control. Or maybe thats just for me.

In this day, He was showing me He wanted me to lose the grip of trying to control the outcome and instead trust in Him in what He is doing in my life. Even if it makes zero sense.

If I were to hang onto control, I am saying I don’t need God because I have this under control and know what I am doing. But I don’t.

I had to release and let go of the fear of what was to come. Letting go of what “could” happen and instead replace it with God’s mind and truth.

“He is for me, not against me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. Pick up your sword.”

Pick up your sword is one He has taught me and highlighted so big in this season. We will go further in that but not yet.

The thing was, I had allowed the door of fear, anxiety, and doubt flood in my mind which clouded my way to preach truth to myself. I allowed it to become giants in my life during that time, and what God was saying to me was, “Pick up your Sword dear daughter and lets worship. Worship is your weapon right now.”

I still struggled to read the Word as I would get dizzy wanting to vomit. I still struggled to pray as I would crash in an instant.

What He was showing me was I needed to let loose of the grip of these 3 giants and instead WORSHIP like I have never worshipped before. He would download these songs throughout the night while sleeping and when I’d awake, the songs were immediately playing in my mind and heart.

I remember getting in my car that evening, needing to run to Market Street for a few groceries to help battle the sickness going back and forth within our home. As soon as I sat in the car and began to drive, sun already setting, I heard the song playing on the radio that was already downloaded in my Spirit.

Tears flowed heavily like a rushing river. I could feel my eyes getting puffy and my nose running.

“Am I really going to get off the car looking like this??”

I was about to step off the car and heard, “hear it again!”

Then suddenly a text came from a close friend of mine that ended up saying she felt I needed to listen to this song and so I heard it. Joy rose within me as I heard the song, and right after it, the song that was in my Spirit played.

Talk about timely.

But this time as I heard the song, I heard the very beginning of what He said and I bawled yet again. Releasing my hands in the air, crying to Abba Father, surrendering my whole being, I could feel heaven flowing down in me giving me this reassurance and peace that it will all be okay. And that giant… those giants… are nothing but false giants. They may look big but they have no power. They have nothing compared to what we Have in Christ.

I felt this releasing of what stood at the front of my door while worshipping in my car alone. A releasing of what I couldn’t seem to fight against. A releasing of knowing, reminding, what I have in me the same power that rose Christ from the dead.

Friend, maybe you’re not facing 3 giants but 1. Or maybe you don’t even know what giants you are facing. But can I tell you something? I know we hear all the time “you got this” or “you’ll get through this.” Sometimes these don’t help.

I want to tell you this.

SURRENDER. RELEASE. LET LOOSE OF THE GRIP of whatever you are holding that you shouldn’t hold onto. And WORSHIP. Worship is a form of our weapon to fight in whatever battle we are facing. It’s an arsenal throwing back at the giants, the enemy, what they try to throw at us.

Friend,

Jesus is right there walking through this terrain with you. His hand is holding yours. He knows what you will come up against, what you will encounter, how you will feel, think and even say. He knows. Will you trust Him through the terrain you are in? Will you let loose of the grip of control and instead allow God to use your life as the willing vessel its meant to be?

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